I am getting better. Or not.
When I went to my doctor’s appointment, and I hobbled in on my crutch, she looked at me funny and asked, “Why are you still on that thing?” Hmmm, that was most upsetting. Last time, she said I was recovering well. This x-ray showed the bone pretty much healed, and no little bone bumps from the appliance they had to put in. No bone calluses, no screw-holes getting bigger or looser, no movement in the appliance was visible, so everything is fine. Now, Walk. “It still hurts. It feels like I have an extra joint in my leg about mid thigh.” “Oh? Well, we can cut you open and go digging around to see what the problem is.” !!!!! “And it pops when I try to do stairs.” “Oh? Well we can send you to our joint specialist and he can dig around in there to see what the problem is.” !!!!!
None of those options seem like a good idea. Maybe I ought to just suck it up buttercup. I have been doing exercises to strengthen the muscles in my left leg. I have done exercises to strengthen my core and my upper body too. I can stand without my crutch and can hobble all over the house, but it’s not walking, it’s limping. And it still hurts. I need to stop complaining to everyone (she says complaining to everyone in PRINT on a BLOG.) When people ask me when I should be off the crutch, I should just drop the stupid thing and walk (limp) away. I shouldn’t have to explain my shortcomings and failures to heal to anyone. No one is actually interested in WHY I still hurt or why I’m not progressing like a normal person that is done with the surgery and then done with the cane or crutch 4 months later. Here I am at 2/15/17 after my accident 8/15/16, 6 months, and still on crutch. Did I mention it still hurts? Every step hurts. Getting up from my chair, from the couch, from the pew hurts. Standing hurts. Sleeping without a pillow between my knees and ankles hurts. I feel like the guy in Holy Grail. People ask me how I’m doing and I say, “I’m not dead…”
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So…it hurts and their only response is “let’s cut you open again?” This is not a question of whether or not you should suck it up. If it was healing properly, you wouldn’t still be in pain. Get a second opinion.